Have you ever had an itch you can’t scratch?
No,not literally.
You want go someplace new.You want change. Things aren’t going how you want them. You want to disappear for just a little while, go someplace new. You could, but that would ruin everything. People would freak out. You would be slipping through their fingers. They thought they might have gained a little control over you that you proved they didn’t have on multiple occasions.You already lost their trust before and what little you’ve already gained back would be gone. It would be even harder for them to trust you once you came back. Would it be worth it? You could go when school is out, you’re not allowed to hang out with the people you actually want to spend time with outside of school anyway. You wouldn’t have to worry about ruining your education/future or rumors starting at school when you’re absent for a week or two. What if you talked to them about this? What if you asked if you could leave before you actually did? Chances are they would say no. They don’t have any reason to say yes. You’re not the kind of person to threaten them with leaving. They think of you as incompetent - no - dependant. You’re always too this or too that or just not ready. “Know what? If you don’t give me that, then I’ll find a way to find out/get it on my own.” is what you think. You’re not doing it to try and piss them off. You’re doing it because you’re curious and you think it’ll be an adventure. You won’t leave forever and definaltely not because you “hate them” or anything dramatic like that. You’ll come back when you’re ready,which probably isn’t as long as they think it would be. It sounds like a good idea to you. What if one of them said yes,but they had to come along. It would be like follow the leader,but instead of you having to follow them, you would be the leader. Look on the brightside, its still an adventure and you’d have someone to keep you company.
Chances are they’d say no, wait til you’re not so dependant. I say Fuck Them.
